I'm Awkward And I Know It

May. 13, 2012 at 2:25pm with 1 note

I love this photo of me in Shreya’s Captain Jack hat. New icon? I think so! xD

May. 9, 2012 at 10:31pm

Questions: FINISHED [I didn’t realize how many of these are about sex… Welp]

1. Are looks important in a relationship? To an extent, yes. I believe you need to be at least physically attracted to someone if you want to make it work.
2. Are relationships ever worth it? I don’t know. Ask me once I’ve actually had a legit boyfriend.
3. Are you a virgin? Yep
4. Are you in a relationship? Nope
5. Are you in love? I don’t think so
6. Are you single this year? Yep. All year long. Cool, right? I know.
7. Can you commit to one person? Yeah, if given the chance.
8. Describe your crush: Funny, cute, can be sweet when he wants to be, my type?
9. Describe your perfect mate: I don’t really know; someone I’m attracted to, someone who loves me for me, despite all my imperfections, someone who I can have fun and goof off with, and someone who won’t hurt me? General kind of stuff, but that’s all I’ve got. Oh, and pretty eyes and a nice smile.
10. Do you believe in love at first sight? I want to believe in all forms of love. But I believe that you can be attracted to someone, but you have to take the next step further and get to know them before you can fall in love.
11. Do you ever want to get married? Yes
12. Do you forgive betrayal? Depends; not usually, unless it’s not really a big deal. Easiest way to put it- it depends on the situation.
13. Do you get jealous easily? Uhh… yeah, I guess? Idk, I know I have a green devil, but I don’t know how easily his temper gets lit.
14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Yes
15. Do you have any piercings? Yes
16. Do you have any tattoos? No
17. Do you like kissing in public? I don’t know, never have been. Only kissed once and the guy didn’t even care about me.
20. Do you shower every day? Yeah
21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I don’t know… Sometimes I think yes, sometimes I think no. I wish he did.
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Doubt it.
23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yep. I know I could.
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? No, I don’t want to be married when I’m 22. I want to get farther in life first.
25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? Yep
26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Nope. I wish.
27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? Uhh… maybe… I don’t think so. At least, not a legit like love poem. Song- no. Poem- maybe.
28. Have you ever been cheated on? No
29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No
30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Yes, and let’s not get into that.

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Yeah
32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Yeah
33. Have you ever had sex with a man? No
34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? No
35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yes
36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yes
37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? I don’t think so?
38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yeah, many times.
39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Yeah
40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Yep
41. Have you had sex so far this year? No
42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? I don’t know.
43. How long was your longest relationship? Technically, 2 weeks. But I really don’t count it as a relationship. The guy barely hugged me. With one arm. And we never talked. I was so stupid… Yeah, so, I’d say 0 seconds, but this is the technicality I wanted to address.
44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? TECHNICALLY 2, but again, I really don’t count them, so 0.
45. How many people did you kiss in 2011? One
46. How many times did you have sex last year? Zero
47. How old are you? Seventeen
48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Nothing; I think that’s what my current situation is.
49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? I don’t have one, but if I did, it’d probably be the way he’d make me feel and how he would always be able to make me smile and laugh.
50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? I haven’t had a first true love, so nobody’s had the chance to apologize with presents. But IF I did, it’d depend on what he was apologizing for.
51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yeah
52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? Yeah, for various reasons that should not be put on the Internet.
53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? No, I’m not talking to anyone, and nobody’d be mad if I was ‘talking’ to the person I like.
54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yeah
55. Share a relationship story. I liked a guy in 7th grade during the spring musical when I was in 6th grade. My friend (and ‘ex’ (again, fucking technicalities)) found out that he liked me. So he asked the guy if he wanted me to be his girlfriend. He said yes. For two weeks, he met me at my locker, hung with me for 5 minutes before running off to his friends, and when he said goodbye, he gave me a 2-second hug with one arm. Oh, and he was the reason my ‘friends’ stopped talking to me for the last two weeks of the school year. THE END. Wasn’t that a lovely story? -___-
56. State 8 facts about your body: 1) I hate it; 2) I have good skin, I guess; 3) My hair is perfectly in the middle of straight and curly, so I can do pretty much anything with it; 4) I have hazel eyes, and my friends have said they seem to change colours with what I wear; 5) I’m 5’8.5”, and one of the tallest of my friends; 6) I have lots of curves all over; 7) My body’s changed a lot in the past two years; and 8) I hate it.
57. Things you want to say to an ex: Nothing?
58. What are five ways to win your heart? 1) Ask me out. Don’t wait around for me to make the first move because I’m terrified of rejection, so I don’t take chances; 2) Tell me I look beautiful. I’ve been told that twice in my life. Both times by guy friends of mine who never had feelings for me. But one was the nicest text I have ever received, and the other was the best in-person moment I ever experienced. So just tell me that. It makes me feel good.; 3) Hold my hand and don’t be embarrassed by me. I know I’m stupid and idiotic. But pretend you don’t care. Please.; 4) Goof off with me. Even if I know you like me, and even if we get in a relationship, I like that feeling of secret flirting. It may not be secret, but I like the feeling. So goof off, because that’s how I flirt; and 5) Don’t call me stupid. This sounds dumb to say, but really… The second you call me stupid, I can’t get it out of my mind. The guy I currently like was joking around with me not too terribly long ago, and he jokingly asked me if I was stupid. I immediately shut up and walked out. I am so fucking tired of people telling me and asking me if I’m stupid, fucking retarded, and whatever else means the same thing. DO NOT DO IT. IT IS PROBABLY THE WORST THING YOU COULD EVER SAY TO ME. EVEN WORSE THAN CALLING ME FAT OR UGLY. I’M SICK AND TIRED OF IT.
59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!) Just took on my webcam.

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? Never had any, really. But as I’ve gone over technicality-wise, one year.
61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Eyes. Then smile.
62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? I don’t know…? The only thing I can think of right now is kissing me on the neck, but that’s not that amazing. Ah well. I’ll go with that for now.
63. What is your definition of “having sex”? The normal one?
64. What is your definition of cheating? Having any romantic or sexual relationship with someone that is not the person you’re with.
65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? Don’t have one.
66. What is your favourite roleplay? Don’t have one.
67. What is your idea of the perfect date? A nice picnic or simple dinner near the beach or a park, and then going for a walk on the beach/ hanging out in the park. Or simply hanging at his house (let’s not do it at mine… haha), watching movies, and cooking for and with each other.
68. What is your sexual orientation? Straight
69. What turns you off? Uhh… acne? Bad hygiene? I don’t really have any experience to truly go with.
70. What turns you on? Like I said, kissing my neck is good. Really anything with my neck. It sounds weird, but even lightly blowing on it… It doesn’t really “turn me on”, but it gives me tingles… If that makes sense? Cause it’s cold, I guess? I don’t know… Lol, this is slightly awk.
71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever had one? And if I have, I don’t remember it.
72. What words do you like to hear during sex? Uhh… I wouldn’t like to hear someone else’s name…? Hahaha I really have no clue. I’ve never had sex.
73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? Hmm… Surprise me with a spontaneous, simple and fun date. Or even simpler, just send me a ‘good morning, beautiful’ text. Yeah, I’d prefer the latter.
74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? Generally good looks. Skin especially is important to me.
75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Buy me coffee and bring it to me in the morning at school when they knew I barely got any sleep and was in a bad mood.
76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? I don’t know. I don’t see things that I do as sweet. I just see them as normal.
77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? My views have changed within the past couple years. But currently, I’d just say it’s kinda weird to be in a relationship with someone 5/6 hours your senior or junior (I’m not talking about high school or even college). Just in general.
78. What’s your dirtiest secret? I’ve done some things on dares I’m not proud of. Lets leave it at that.
79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Not too long ago. Because I thought the guy I like was into someone else… Still do. But I saw him around her and thought he was flirting and felt a little jealous.
80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Tonight. To my parents.
81. Who are five people you find attractive? 1) David Tennant, 2) Matt Smith, 3) ALL the boys in One Direction, 4) Ryan Follese (technically, all the HCR boys, but mainly Ryan- my prom date ;D hahaha), and 5) Max Greenfield (Schmidt on “New Girl”)
82. Who is the last person you hugged? My mom? Bailey? One of those two.
83. Who was your first kiss with? My friend during winter break on a dare.
84. Why did your last relationship fail? Because we were in middle school and it wasn’t anything at all (I’m done with being technical).
85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? Probably not.
86. You’ll love me if… If… you’re into me? If you like the way I look, the way I act, and just me in general? This question’s kinda vague.